The shadow side of success in my experience

The shadow side of success in my experience, is the pursuit of success to fill a void that otherwise feels like it can’t be filled on its own.

Cryptic kind of thought I had I know, but stay with me while I unpack it for you (and for me honestly).

Are you trying to prove you are worthy to yourself, to your family, to your peers so much so that that is the driving force for you to succeed, instead of being rooted in the true selfless act of serving others and improving the world?

If your answer is no, did your ego say that or did you really mean it?

If i’m honest, this is one I’ve had to come back to many times and many times my ego needed to be called out.

Because if I dug deep the answer was yes, to prove I’m worthy, worthy to myself, to my parents, that I’m not a total failure and will make something of myself.

Truly I felt like a failure for many years, dropping out of uni twice after doing well in high school, not having any idea what I wanted to do, no real obvious calling, hanging with the wrong kind of crowd and knowing that’s not for me, but what the hell was I going to do?

Work on my confidence,

Let go of giving a sh*t what people thought of me and who I was supposed to be,

Talk openly about what I wanted to,

Reduce my circles to those like-minded,

Clean up my energy leaks, money leaks,

Be an amazing mum,

Work on my part of the relationship with my husband,

Clean my inner sh*t up and debunk the beliefs that said I couldn’t.

This is the work, this is my passion, I am fantastic at it

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